Under Pressure... sing it Queen

as my FI and i flew back from our Wedding Open House in SLC, we spent time discussing our 10 mile long to-do list.... which by the way we have 18 days or 2.5 weeks left!

 time to really buckle down.

the past 4 days wass the most time we've consecutively spent together maybe since our trip to Jackson Hole last summer when we got engaged! so, we used most of this past weekend to catch up on all of the "things" we've been meaning to talk about or forget to bring up - in relation to the wedding.

after talking and interupting each other mid thought so we wouldn't lose our own train of thought - it hit us that not only are we rapidly approaching our wedding date (duh!), we still have so many miles to cover on the journey to Aug 2nd.... not to mention we are trying to set up shop for our married lives together after that date... so it's wedding and marriage planning all rolled into one large rolling snowball. (i like visual imagery)

here's a brilliant yet totally lame idea i came up with to help keep me on track - rather than just a huge to-do list i made 3 to work from and i'm filling them in according to the week.

here's an example of a few things per week:

this week (before the bachelor party)

- get keys to apartment/ paint/ get utilities transfered

- get final hotel guest list for OOT Bags & order Bags

- go hunting for OOT goodies

- prep for crazy wedding workshop this weekend

next week (before my bachelorette party):

- finish bridal party gifts (since i'm such a DIY lady)

- make sure all my time off from work is taken care of

- empty my bank account - ie. pay all bills due while we are on our honeymoon

- finalize music & wedding weekend/ day of timeline and distribute to all vendors & bridal party members

week of wedding:

- no more DIY projects! must be complete before leaving for Vegas

- finish HM packing

- get floating rafts for HM =) so cheesy

- go crazy!  jk

it helped me to lay out the weeks this way... and now i'm starting to break down these lists into smaller ones i can use each day of those weeks.  for example the night before i have a game plan of what errands need to be run before or after work, so the next day i can not only conserve gas, but my time and sanity - which could be better used for another task!

do i sound insane or has anyone previously or is anyone currently in the state i am (not quite panic but on the verge)?  sorry for the ramblings of this tired lady, i'm cutting myself off and going to bed.... g'night

hello my name is blair and i'm a plan-aholic

i swear i'm going crazy... crazy to the point i'm losing sleep, i have to-do list for my to-do lists! i know this sounds absolutely nuts, but if you are a bride, i think depending on how together you are, you will at some point feel the overwhelming rush of details that need to be planned, decided upon, or simply get checked off you master list of fun stuff!

i honestly love planning things, but now that we're talking about my one and only wedding, i am afraid of making one bad call, missing something majorly important, or just forgetting/ overlooking a central detail.

i'll be the first to admit, i spend a good amount of quality time on wedding blogs, Weddingbee is one in particular that i consult... ohhh.... on a daily basis, if a not morning and night to divide up reading the daily postings from all the current brides-to-be. it has been a great resource not only for my wedding and my many many DIY wedding projects, but also for Joie de Vie Jewelry (my wedding jewelry business)! i don't know if this is due to my current state of mind, but i have been noticing lately that the girls with a similar time frame till their weddings, and those with the dates fast approaching, are loosing their minds too!  that, temporarily provided me with some solace.

i just don't understand how i was so calm and collected about planning, had it all under control,  and have now turned into this insomniac, ocd, bridezilla bordering person??!?  i did vow at the start of planning not to become a bridezilla, i love details, but i will not, terrorize friends and family's with my wedding plans and tragedies.

i guess the bottom line and solution to my problems is to :

• A) detach myself from my computer (not good, there would go my late night blogging)  
• B) the D word: delegate, ugh, i'm a control freak and i know it, and i have a hard time believing that anyone other than myself will get the job done, or even get it done to my liking!
  
• C) let go of some of the details - i - just - can't - do - that!  i knew i had a problem when my bridesmaids told me they would wait to hear what i had planned for my bachelorette party and all i needed to tell them was when, where and how much to pay... that comment wasn't a slap in the face mind you, it was them telling me to let go of some things! i.e. showers, bachelorette party, small details they CAN help with... maybe the more sleepless nights i encounter, the more likely i will be to take them up on it! 

sorry for the rambling, but my life seems like it's being consumed by this wedding, which is a day where i will marry my best friend while enjoying the company of our closest friends and family... all i really want is to be able to slow down and enjoy it all...